Fall has arrived

So September brought a few unexpected things. Getting ready for a hernia repair that was caused by where my chest was cracked open. I cant exercise because it is very painful. The surgeon that 8s doing the repair is my heart transplant surgeons wife!

Then I have been told I need a brain shunt because I have a lot of fluid build up around my brain but I have decided to hold off on that one. Then I find out that my landlord wants to kick us out. So we have three decisions.  Stay in circleville and rent again, buy a house in Circleville or move out of state and the later I feel is the better option. I need a fresh start for my family. The are so many cobwebs here and people that I thought I trusted and now I have seen the truth. 

I have been granted 8 extra years with an lvad and a new heart and some people that i really trusted and be friended really dont and didnt get. I am done with other people that wont be honest with me and make me feel like a user. 

The sad thing is that I have been so miserable from my brain pressure issue that it changed my life. My memory became foggy, I lived in a world of either reality or not real. And if these people who i cared about didn't see that and saw my destruction, then shame on them. 

I dont have much time left so I am going to use what time I do have to explore life. 

I am fed up with worry about other people's issues as I have my own and my family needs me. I still have time to be that person I wanted to be to stand up and inspire. So although there are people that let me down, they actually made me realise that I am a good man. 

So I wont say pray for me for a while because the church right now has let me down and I have to find peace with all that's happened. 

Be safe my friends and please continue to share my website 

Three years on and I still think of my old buddy. RIP Keith. 

August ends

So I am cancer free for 3 years now. Had a scare a while back but all clear.

My heart is perfect is absolutely perfect.

Kidneys are stable.

Back into the gym tomorrow and start training again.

Now this weeks appointment is to see whether I need to get a shunt in the brain. 

It was recognized that for many years now the pressure has bee  building. Along with lack of oxygen, a stroke and seizures I shouldn't really be here. I made irrational decisions with terrible consequences,  loss of memory to the point where I didn't know what's real and not real. Vertigo issues and anger.

I had a lumbar puncture but before the procedure I took a test and failed, done a similar test after and passed. Shows that the pressure is building. One doctor told me he suggests do the surgery as it may take me to a point where I cant walk. There are many factors that are making this tough. It's been tough after the transplant.  For the last 8 years it's been so terrifyingly scary and now this. 

Theres only so much a person can  take. Is this the end or is this another part where I have to fight again. 

I am doing as much as I can in life to a point just in case this is it. I never know anymore.

So until my next appointment on the 2nd September,  be safe,  be careful and be lucky. 

Mark.✌🏼

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Ok so if you dont already know, in my younger years I was a dj. I still have the passion but would rather do it privately than publically although one of my .icing buddies in the eighties was John Digweed, now worth $45M, yeah thanks mate.
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