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Check out my presentation at OSU Richard Ross Heart Hospital. The first time I'd talked to other heart patients and a doctor plus in the hospital where I'd been saved so many times. It was good to see myself make people smile and laugh. Please share to friends, businesses, churches, organisations.
Thank you to Jeff and his wife for giving me the platform to hopefully start my next chapter.
https://youtu.be/3cDGMNjlvGU
So i was honored to be asked to speak at one of Healing Hearts Thursday evening meetings. To have gone through 7 years of intense craziness it's amazing to realise I'm still here and now i am telling other people my story. I had no nerves or worries about doing this. My only concern was the tremors that always happen after I've walked somewhere or i am trying to get ready and i really am just trying to relax. The first couple of minutes i had to ask for forgiveness as the shaking is really just a feeling but controls everything.
Once i had overcome that, i clicked on my PowerPoint and started my presentation. Ever since having this heart issue i have had a few problems with memory so looking at a screen with photos allowed me to carryon with my adlid and allowed my audience something to look at because I'm no hunk!
At the end i had so many questions to reply to, which made me think, these people really were listening to me. And to have people afterwards stand in front of me with tears in their eyes thanking me was a humbling experience.
This has now opened up my mind and I want to keep presenting and inspiring.
Watch out world I'm on a roll
Sick of feeling like other people are better than me. We are all humans and we should treat each other in a better way. Be honest and be real.
There's always good news then followed by bad. Welcome to my world day uhhmmm lost count. Peace.
Find something else!
Tomorrow i am going to start cardio, talk to kids and be me. The me i was and who i really am.
My bedroom at home was full of vinyl records. I was part of the house/techno, garage, rave and electro scene. We understood the Prodigy and Keith was and still is a legend and hero in my music mixing days. One of my biggest regrets still to this day was not following my mixing, producing dj career but you just never know whats round the corner. Like a good friend told me, dont look to far ahead!
My brother even done some work on the Bands brand new Grand Cherokees which in England at that time were very American and cool. Everything on them were black and mysterious.
So i just watched this ITV news headline and it broke my heart to see that we were the same age. Another fact that probably none of you know and maybe its now a time to open up, is through this last 7 years I have hit rock bottom. And now as I get a second chance even with a new heart, you may not understand. It's easy to smile but inside the passion for life sometimes becomes just a flickering flame.
I have many many more challenges ahead of me and the strange realization of this story is that there are people from all walks of life that suffer from hitting rock bottom.
I am nearly done with my steroids that makes me very angry and irritable. Friday was my first psychologist appointment and my brain, thoughts and reasoning even scare me.
To all those that I've been mean too, angry too, verbally abusive and just outright disgusting, I am so sorry. I am ashamed of myself and find it hard to understand why things happen. I love being funny, making people laugh and making a difference in lives. People take me the wrong way sometimes. My psychologist made me realise a lot of things and told me off for many of my actions. I can't stop my brain from running at a million miles an hour. Hopefully the tools she's teaching me will help me in everyway possible.
This isn't the end but I am one of so many that never really show how bad it is.
At 50 i still remix music on my laptop, i love that Josh is musical and honestly age is nothing if it takes me back to what i loved.
Rest in Paradise Keith Flint and thank you for shaping my music experice in the 90s.
And i will admit, I cried and then just cried again as the date 1969 to 2019 came up on the screen. Heaven is going to be one crazy place this weekend. First ever rave party in the clouds. Like my mum used to say, "Mark keep the noise down."
And to this day, the Prodigy is on my playlist.
Also 31 years ago i lost my own father. I hope he can help me on my next bunch of health issues. He passed away of colon cancer and i now take rejection medicine i am more prone to this cancer disease than ever before.
As i write this i got another test result about another infection i have, if i dont watch out out and slip up i could go blind. Go figure. 😷
Our presentation is on all the osu screens throughout the hospital.
Kidney number is creeping up again. No urine infections. White blood count a little high.
No flu virus. But Josh has now been tested for strep and flu. Positive for both. Bad news for all of us.
I feel so bad for Josh. Now we have to stay away from each other.
TVs all over OSU displaying Dr Emani and my presentation on the 14th. Don't forget anyone is welcome but must send a RSVP. The flyer is in this blog.
Thanks to the salesman at Best Buy this afternoon for making the modem/router an easier buy. Go share my website. www.heartofmark.com
Welcome to my world!
Heart cath, biopsy, flu swab, blood draw and urine sample! Oh and a turkey sandwich.
Tomorrow i get the results of the biopsy but my doctor thinks because all my heart pressures are excellant my biopsy should be good to.
So its Sunday and tomorrow is a new day and new week. Take care and peace....
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