Fall has arrived

So September brought a few unexpected things. Getting ready for a hernia repair that was caused by where my chest was cracked open. I cant exercise because it is very painful. The surgeon that 8s doing the repair is my heart transplant surgeons wife!

Then I have been told I need a brain shunt because I have a lot of fluid build up around my brain but I have decided to hold off on that one. Then I find out that my landlord wants to kick us out. So we have three decisions.  Stay in circleville and rent again, buy a house in Circleville or move out of state and the later I feel is the better option. I need a fresh start for my family. The are so many cobwebs here and people that I thought I trusted and now I have seen the truth. 

I have been granted 8 extra years with an lvad and a new heart and some people that i really trusted and be friended really dont and didnt get. I am done with other people that wont be honest with me and make me feel like a user. 

The sad thing is that I have been so miserable from my brain pressure issue that it changed my life. My memory became foggy, I lived in a world of either reality or not real. And if these people who i cared about didn't see that and saw my destruction, then shame on them. 

I dont have much time left so I am going to use what time I do have to explore life. 

I am fed up with worry about other people's issues as I have my own and my family needs me. I still have time to be that person I wanted to be to stand up and inspire. So although there are people that let me down, they actually made me realise that I am a good man. 

So I wont say pray for me for a while because the church right now has let me down and I have to find peace with all that's happened. 

Be safe my friends and please continue to share my website 

Three years on and I still think of my old buddy. RIP Keith. 

Presentation at OSU

So i was honored to be asked to speak at one of Healing Hearts Thursday evening meetings. To have gone through 7 years of intense craziness it's amazing to realise I'm still here and now i am telling other people my story. I had no nerves or worries about doing this. My only concern was the tremors that always happen after I've walked somewhere or i am trying to get ready and i really am just trying to relax. The first couple of minutes i had to ask for forgiveness as the shaking is really just a feeling but controls everything.

Once i had overcome that, i clicked on my PowerPoint and started my presentation. Ever since having this heart issue i have had a few problems with memory so looking at a screen with photos allowed me to carryon with my adlid and allowed my audience something to look at because I'm no hunk!

At the end i had so many questions to reply to, which made me think, these people really were listening to me. And to have people afterwards stand in front of me with tears in their eyes thanking me was a humbling experience. 

This has now opened up my mind and I want to keep presenting and inspiring.

Watch out world I'm on a roll